Thursday 12 April 2012

April 2012

Hi
well i'm not sure what i should be writing here now just a bit of an update on what is happening in my life right now.
I have been a Samaritan now for 2 Years and in the past few Mths I have been a Prison Visitor as well as some who have read my Blogs will know i have had times  of Depression. Well since i joined this fantastic group of people this has been a lot less i'm not going to say it has gone but i think that may be up to me,have talked to  people and what they have to say and are going through makes my problems pail into nothing.

I am also now 21mths post-op now and still loving life.

Wednesday 31 August 2011

2011 September update

Hi Ladies and Gents
I haven't been posting a lot as you can tell

Well i am now13 Mths post op wow doesn't time fly!?

I can not believe it life is a lot better than it was for the first 44 years of my life even thou  I have had  some ups and Downs  I have in the past 12 months tried to take my own life twice and have had  a lot of depression. I have tried to over come it with out the help of Drugs and such like.

I have also started to try and get back in to work again too i started with anew driving school which has been good for my mood and such like.

life has been funny since my op it still shocks   me were your "P" goes and i don't think I will ever fully get used to it lol

well look after your selves  take care i will try an post a little more often if i can  love reading all your post  so yea i do keep up with you all

chat soon  x x x

Sunday 10 October 2010

The week after the op

I woke in my room at 12 i know it was 12 as that is what was writen in my notes, I remember waking in the recovery room but it was very unclear it was such a large room and very clinical looking . I remember the Nurse stood to my Left saying "Hi Emma its all over " i drifted in and out of sleep for a while i did ask the time " it's 11: 20 Emma" so i had been out for just about 3 hours wow three hours to change my life for ever.




Back in my room there were nurses and health care staff in and out most of the day had a few phone calls allthough they refused to put calls through to me as the staff Protect you for the day of your surgary , No Visitors untill about Tea time that afternoon. I found this very good as you dont really come round untill about then ( well i didnt ).



I did have a very light "tea" on the tuesday it was a sort of very watery soup with a posh name looked like Beef stock . and was a bit salty for me but was the best thing ever having not eaten for almost 24 hours .



Had a bit of a restless sleep but it doesnt help with being woken up every hour to have your Blood Presure and blood suger taken every hour .



Robyn called this evening was really nice to see her ,



Wednesday 14th July 2010







Woken up at 05:00 breakfast was a cup of tea with no milk ( part of the Low residue diet thing)



this was to continue for the rest of the day as i am diabetic i was to be back on my Normal diet from day 2 wow i carnt wait.



Mr Thomas called in to check i was ok and looked at the T bandage it was ok but needed ctightening so got the nurses to do it later that morning even though he had pulled it tight it needed changing so they did it felt as though they were going to Pull my B**** through the top of my head ( well if i had any )



It was at this time i did wonder if MR T had done the op so i asked the nurse ..... " Emma i can assure you IT has gone !!! "



so what happend on wednesday NOTHING apart from the Nurses and health care staff calling in Emma "just need to check your bandage" one thing i will say here is if you are a bit shy at all learn now and leave you Dignaty at the door of the Hospital even better At home .



so they move all your covers bend your legs carfully all with help from the staff and them lift you Bum like in a crab sort of move so they can see under neath yo and make sure your not bleeding , Non was ever found under me at all not to say i havent lost a bit since



Dinner time was the thin soup again of which there were 2 types



Beef consume



and



veg consume



both brown and both taste very much the same if im Honnest this time i did have lemmon and Ginger Tea which i do like more so than Black plain tea ( but i did get a liking for it )



4 more Bandage exams throught the after noon and that was the most exciting part of my day



and more Beef soup for tea again



Had visits from Susan and Jane today Jane is as bad as ever ,.....



Met Ella today she was to become a nice friend she had give up her op date ont the 13th for one on the 15th for me due to my health she is such a nice lady as i was to find out later in the week



Thursday 15th July 2010



woke at 5 carn't really say woke as i didnt really sleep that well today is op +2 so it was the day i start my Normal diet Not a rgular thing but as im diabetic i was to get eating properly asap to get me off the Insulin Sliding scale and drip i was on (so dont exspect the smae if you go to Brighton)



so Breakfast was Rice Krispies with milk and Tea with Milk and a Muller yogurt wow what a fab brekki after the last few days 8 am is breakfast time so had a few hours just thinking about what i had done it then it really hit me " WOW i am really finished " " what am i going to do with the rest of my life " " what do i have to focus on now ?"



after brekfast its more bandage exams



Had a visit from Robyn today Gosh she is sneeky she went all the way to London and brought a friend to see me this must have been hard for her as he is her ex Bfirend and i think she still hurts from the split Joe just walked in the room and stood ny my bed ,,,,,,, WOW i thought who is this strange man OMG its J wow i was so shocked , they stayed about 3 hours



Friday 16th July 2010 op + 3



Not much happend on friday more Bandage exams drinkinh tea and eating



then OMG im allowed out of bed for the first time 30 Mins am and 30 mins pm that was very uncomfy no real pain as i havent hed any through out the whole Proceses



it did feel very odd sitting i mean there is the T Bandage and the op think about it ....



Saturday 17th July 2010



Big day to day Pack out day and T bandage removal but when would this be ..... i was soon to find out



as Mr Thomas came in about 7:45 " and how ar we today ?" " Im very well " ok lets remove this bandage so covers off and a pair of sissors after 10 mins trying to untie it ,,



Then after all the cotten wool was cleard away the pack was to come out thought i would be warned But no it was so quick i didnt get chance to feel it tickle Then OMG this i was not ready for the 30 cm Dilator was coverd in Luve and ............... You got it stright into my New Lady Bits OMG i was not ready for that i just led on the bed and thought of england ........ what else is a girl to do here i was less than 4 days old and impailed on a 30cm dilator wow



so after 10 mins i was free again i was cleaned up by the nurses and allowed my rice krispies



then paper Knickers and my first sanitary towel lol get use to them for a weeks or so



nice easy day and i could get up and walk so i visited Ella a few times im sure i annoyed her a little



Sunday 18th July 2010 op + 5



D I L A T I N G D A Y !!!!



well its here the dredded dilating day 8 am liz came in brought the stents and a load of other interesting looking stuff



I had breakfast and then it was been shown how todilate time



had to prep every thing



towl on the bed



Kitchen roll in sheets for cleaning up



Aqua jell or Ky Jelly



and your new best friends



i will leave it there for now if any one would like me to go intoit please say so .....

The Next few weeks

I have in the past few weeks been rushing about like a mad thing trying to get myself ready for the Visit to Brighton. Ive been given a list of things they recomend to take in with you, So its trip to Primark to get some T shirts for sleeping in  Night dresses not recomended as they ride up and can cause problems.

Loads of Panty liners Wow never thought i would have to buy these but good feeling .... lol
16th of June i decide to go to Brighton to visit a friend i made on the net  she is from Aberdeen
so i set off at 8am and drove to my friends who lives in the area and then on to Brighton were Sammi was due for her op this had been put off due to a medical problem so the wednesday was op day  we saw her about 1 and  stayed till she was called for by the porter.

We went back to my friends were she packed i said what are you doing " well i decided to come home with you and look after you untill your op " wow what a fantastic lady  she took 4 weeks out of her life to come home with me .

So we had 4 weeks of getting my house ready for me post op tidying getting rid of Junk buying stuff for after the op like filling the fridge/frezer and cupbords etc .

Then on the 10th of July i did Sparkle ( were i was a stewardess)  we went in to Manchester were my friend Kerry paid for us all to have our nails  done BUT it was pointed out my op was in 3 days and would have to have my new nails removed so it was decided i would sit out this adventure so i did Boo Hoo

The sunday 11th we packed up and set of south to my friends house near Portsmouth stopped over night leaving my suitcase there for afterwards as i was to stay a week or so before we attempted the 250 mile drive back North.

Monday morning  i was to be in Brighton  Nuffield Hospital by 11am  we set off a little late  and got there by 11:20 am  it was so organised once checked in i was taken to my room (14 on the 2nd floor ) and with in 20 mins the Drs were there to take Blood for type matching and things  ( i had had my pre op over the  phone and all the MRSA test at my doctors  so all that had been done )  i then unpacked and settled  down for the afternoon  people poping in and out all day.

My Friend R set my laptop up with the Nuffield WiFi wow that was so good and such a help in the week to come, I was allowed my Tea which was a Low Res diet and was Chicken and mash with carrots  and Black tea which i came to like over the next day or so ,

My friend went about 7 and i settled down to watch some telly ..... I was never tempted to have a TS last stand  which i had been told was a tranidion i wasnt going to partake in  thanks but no thanks !

The following morning i woke about 5am  and just looked out of the window for a while  not sure how long iwas there but the nurses came in at 6am  when Liz said 2 all ready?" Yup i was so had to lie on my side while the Enima was administerd  Not as bad as i had imagined  UNTILL it took effect  i was told to keep it in as long as poss 5 mins was requested i did manage 9 whole minuets  OMG did i have to rush to the loo..... 10 mins later i was ok ish again so i had a quick shower washed my hair afterall i wasnt going to be out of bed for the next 5 days .

Sat in bed in my gown till about 8 when Mr Thomas came in about 10 past 8  i then signed the consent form  and Mr Thomas said " ok Emma see you in the thearter in 10 mins "

I had thought a theatre trolly would come but no  I was wheeled on MY BED to the theatre and in there had to confirm my name  etc they checked my wrist band  and then the 2 canulurs wer eput in one in each hand ,.

One for my diabetis care the other for the drugs needed
1 for antibiotics
2 carnt remember  which stung a bit
3 the one that would knock me out  this stung a bit more than the last one but was told " it will sting but not for long as this one puts you tosleep" " just breath normaly " i counted to 2 and thats the last i remember!

  

Saturday 9 October 2010

Following a bit of news

Hi

I am so sorry it has been so long since my last post  well a lot has happend  i went to see  MR Thomas in march and was accsepted for surgary after i have had some laser hair removal on my Nether region  OMG  but hey its no big deal it didnt even hurt  i think i have become so detached from that partof my body i just dont accespt its there any more .

So i have 3 sessions of laser on the Yukki bits and at the 3rd session after 4 weeks no hair regrowth so the clinic declaire my bits hair free .

I rang the wonderfull LIZ and got a choice of dates the 15th of july or the 5th of August for my OP yes i did say MY OP !

I picked the 15th of July so if the slot in the theatre can be booked its mine .... But she rang back 2 days later  the date had to be changed  to the 13th wow even better if they can get hold of the lady having he op on the 13th and change it for her. they wonted me to have an op in the morning and  so there was a full medical staff team in the hospital because of my diabetis .

3 days go by and another call .............................. ITS ON  MY OP IS SET FOR THE 13TH OF JULY 2010 AT 08:30 AM  ................. O M G  I AM ONE HAPPY  GIRL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday 12 July 2010

Tuesday 13 July 2010

Hi

Woke up at 04:45 nurse cam in to wake me at 6 .... Was still awake . then the Fun Bit  Fleet  the emima  oh what a funny  feeling that was  tryed to hold in as long as i could  i managed 9 Mins  then Rush to the loo  OMG then quick shower.

Put on surgical gown  and sat here typing this Blog waiting for the Surgeon to visit  my hand is shaking a little but im not scaired at all will see you all on the other side .

Oh yea the telly in my room doesnt work too well

monday 12th july 2010

Got up today at 8 had to go to the Doctor to get  some medication i left at home  oh silly me
got to Brighton at about 12:30 no sooner thani got hre did i have a blood test  then came lunch  a plain omlet very nice too

people coming and going througout the afternoon  met a lovley girl called Andi 3  rooms  along the coridor  had her op last thursday looking very well and so HAPPY.

had chicken mash and carortts for my last meal watched pirates of the carobean  not bad huh  sleep at about 11
spoke to my sisters  Susan Sammi Kezz And yoyo

had 8 MSN windows open at one point wow didnt know i knem so many people ... Thanks every one for careing

tuesday to come