I started high school in 1976 September from day one i hated it i felt as though i was just wrong i did all the wrong classes like i did wood work and metal work when i felt i should be in cookery or needle work why was i made to do these things i was not meant to do, Then there was Hell on Earth, P.E who invented this touchier as i felt like a girl in side myself why was i being made to undress and change then at the end of the session SHOWER naked with BOYS.
I Just hated school for the first year the second one wasn't as bad as i was allowed to go home for lunch this gave some relief from the Hell that was school . were boys were always fighting to see who could be the "cock " of the school or in other words who was the most Violante.
At home for the 45 minuets i had for my lunch once i had used 10 minuets to get home I first put on my soup to cook (well heat up ) i would shut all the curtains down stairs i could then get changed sort of i would wear a skirt as i didn't have a full female wardrobe as i would have liked,
some times i would keep on an under slip or under skirt to go back to school as i really did not wont to change back . so soup eaten and telly watched the addverts in the middle of " Take the High Road" would play so its time to return to hiding in a male clothes again, some times I would miss judge the time this would be the time my school friend Mark would call for me to walk back to school Oh heck did he see me run up stairs to change out of my skirt ?
well he never said any thing for the whole five years i knew him he was either oblivious to my true self or just a good friend ? who knows as i lost touch with him when we left school only seeing each other once or twice in the few years folowing high school .
I return to the P.E Lessons for a short tale i remember one P.E Lesson were a boy lets call him Peter ((not his real name) all other names have been changed ) he came in to the changing room and told Mr Smith the teacher " Sir I have forgotten my kit " "Well just wait here a moment " and he left the room the towel wiping then started on his return Mr Smith Produced a replacement PE Kit for Peter ' A Gym Skirt and Top ' from the girls gym teacher I really really wanted to be in His shoes right now , I dreampted about this situation but with me in peters place for many years .
At the end of my second year at high school my mum and dad separated we then had six weeks of snow as though the world was telling them to stay apart . It was a good time for me in one way as my mum could not take all her clothes with her in a case so i had things to wear for a short time before they were moved to were my mum lived with her mum n dad , i did keep a dress a green one with a pleated skirt i kept that dress for a good few years .
By this time i had built up quite a wardrobe of things some bought some acquired one of our neighbours must have seen me dressed at some point as she offerd to wash my "wardrobe" if i needed help in that area . i never didi take her up on this offer as i would put my clothes in the washer whae i knew my dad was at work late or on nights. this worked very well untill he got a new woman .